Procrastination

I'm not sure why I keep doing this to myself...

This weekend is the day I've been looking forward to and dreading simultaneously. I'm at the point where the bad decisions from the last year are coming back to haunt me. So much stuff to do and the time I had to prepare is long gone. It's not like I didn't know these things were due, more I thought subconsciously that it would take less time. I've made it to the point where I'm mentally stressing trying to get things done, and I'm quite sure I haven't left myself enough breathing room. Take "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance" (the book I need to read), currently sitting in front of me, about 1/3 read. If I spent a great deal of time in the next 3 days reading, I'm sure I could get it done. Unfortunately I also have other things to take care of in that timeframe like work, a first aid course, 5 applications, form reps, and about 30-40 thousand push-ups and sit-ups that I know that timeframe wont allow. So what did I do last night to prepare for all this? 6 hour video game session with a friend that lasted until 2 in the morning ... Sometimes I wish I had a brick wall I could bang my head against because that sounds more productive than most of the things I do in my free time.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to try to get as much of this done as possible but the way things are right now, not everything on that list will be done by its deadline. The best I can do for the time being is to work on what I can and re-evaluate, some of my life choices/habits at a later date.

Half of the reason I'm writing this blog is to admit that I screwed up. I left everything the last minute and I'm paying the price for it. I understand that this was most definitely not the intended way that this I Ho Chuan year should have gone, And I personally understand the reasons as to why. The other half of the reason why I'm writing this is to remind myself in the future not to be so dumb. If I deal with deadlines as soon as possible, I wouldn't be in a mess such as this. Hopefully this blog comes back into my mind at some point in the future when this is about to happen again.

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  1. Kayley BurkeJanuary 3, 2024 at 9:27 PM

    It doesn’t really matter if all those things get “checked off” before a deadline, the point is to work at them one small step at a time until they all add up rather than trying to push hard and do something big all at once, making them a part of your kung fu rather than “something you have to do for the grading year”
    It’s great to see you sharing this struggle with the rest of the team but I would love to see you make a concrete plan of how you’re going to address it in the future! Don’t think so much about what you didn’t do in the past, but instead focus on what you are going to do about it right now

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