Practicing Presence Of Mind

As of late I've been really focusing on keeping up a presence of mind during my daily activities (or "trying to" might be better terminology for it). As much as I do, try to keep my focus throughout the day, My attention span seems to be dictated from the moment I wake up. If I wake up with energy and a sense of what to do in the morning, I'm good to go for the rest of the day. If I don't have that, I feel like I need to refocus my brain every 5 minutes, I couldn't tell you why. Frankly, this habit both confuses and annoys me at the same time. It's like I don't feel like I'm going to do anything meaningful today Unless I wake up on The Verge of a heart attack, panicking about something ( Not literally, but you get the idea). Now that I'm reading this down and almost sounds paradoxical, Considering I need to be active from the moment I wake up In order to be active for the rest of the day. 

Any other day at the week It feels like I'm waking up from bed and then Staring at a wall for about 10 minutes Before I even decide to move. It's days like these That the feeling of dozing off never leaves my mind. Even when I do catch myself Drifting my gaze into the infinite abyss of my mind, The thoughts that are keeping me present don't last anymore than 2 minutes And it's quite frustrating.

Ask for trying to fix this issue, I'm not quite sure. I'm still trying to put together morning routine That actually works, and ends up with me getting app at 6 AM. Most of the time that does just result me going back to bed for another 2 hours until I have to work, So I might have to change something in there.

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  1. Jeff BrinkerNovember 13, 2023 at 11:57 AM

    I am very similar to you so I have built safeguards into my day to help me refocus and return to the present. I started off with an alarm on my watch that went off every fifteen minutes. When the alarm went off, I stopped what I was doing and took three deep, cleansing breaths and asked myself: "Where am I?" and "What am I doing?"

    After a month or so of doing this everyday, I increased the time to 30 minutes between alarms. Once I was successful at that, I went to an hour. I have since returned to the 30 minute interval because I find it serves me the best.

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