Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired

    It's been a month since I've done a blog, so not too proud of that. I was knocked out of commission for a bit due to an illness (which was why I wasn't in classes all of last week) and I'm going through the process of getting myself back on track again. As much as I hate being sick, I have to come to terms with the fact that it's a part of life. Still, I can't help but feel like there was more to be done WHILE I was sick. Not that I felt like I could go run a marathon or anything (far from it in fact), but I felt a looming feeling of guilt thinking "I'd be doing pushups right about now if I wouldn't cough up my lungs if I tried". I know that rest is supposed to help you get better, but my brain doesn't believe it, and I get restless. Being sick feels like it comes often enough that it would halt my progress, but not frequent enough that I necessarily know how to handle it from a training perspective. I'm feeling  physically better now, but the hit to my morale is still lingering. Nothing I'm not used to by this point though, Just need to get one foot in front of the other and I'll be back on the right path again. 

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